The start of the new year is usually really exciting and fresh and something about the feeling of a clean slate excites me to start writing new resolutions. Typically I will pick up a new journal from Target and can’t wait to start listing my spiritual, family, health and work related goals. This year I just kinda felt smug about it all. I wanted to fold my arms and pout like my Quincey does… because I sucked this year at accomplishing what I wanted to do. The only thing I did amazingly well was kissing Myles’s cheeks, being there for my girls and planning date nights. I know I know, those are more important than anything. It’s just the fact that I could’ve done better. I am not typically a regretful person. I run far and fast from that “r” word. But it is annoying to sit down and write the same goals and wishes that I did last year. Ya know?
So I figured out something that lifted my spirits.
I wrote the things I accomplished in 2013 that I am proud of. It could be anything simple or grand. We didn’t travel anywhere exotic. We didn’t make any huge changes. But we laughed our butts off & explored the mountains & loved to the fullest.
Having Myles in our lives/
Learning to make videos/
Buying our camper and redoing it/
Went to the beach/
Went to Disneyland/
Awesome job designing Dear Lizzy products/
Fundraiser for my niece Zuzu/
Momma Bear to Four/
I am still figuring out my “word” for 2014. Sometimes I keep it personal but most years I share it. The past two years I focused on the same word- L I G H T. It literally applies to all areas of my life. And I couldn’t find a word to live up to its glory last year so I continued it. : ) There’s no rules for this stuff, right? ; ) Now I feel like I am at the next chapter and am ready for a new word. Something playful yet strong.
Our Christmas card was the perfect way to share my word, Let Your Heart Be Light.
photos by Heather Telford
This year I want to FOCUS my time better so when then I’m done with doing the stuff I need to do I will feel more free.
I was being a bum the other night just getting frustrated at the house being messy and I felt like I was always picking up the kids’ stuff. Then I looked at Collin and he said, “Liz, this year it’s about…” as he tilted his head and pushed the sides of his mouth up with his pointer fingers to a cheesy wide-eyed smile. That is exactly what I want this year. To not worry about all the fussiness. Then I went to the kitchen because my eyes were tearing up… passing the girls who were dancing to a record I got for Christmas–Mumford And Sons. The song Not With Haste was playing. Great song. Just what I wanted to hear:
We will run and scream
You will dance with me
Fulfill our dreams and we’ll be free
We will be who we are
And they’ll heal our scars
Sadness will be far away
Do not let my fickle flesh go to waste
As it keeps my heart and soul in its place
And I will love with urgency but not with haste
Maybe that’s my word. Free. Hears to Twenty Fourteen. xo, Lizzy